Closing Time (Semisonic)

Closing time...every new beginning comes from some other beginning's end.

I had a conversation with my dad after the last blog post I wrote. He simply stated, "You're in a new season of life." It hadn't occurred to me til that time the difference in the two seasons. I'm still in school, but grad school, and my program in particular, is a completely different beast.

In undergrad, I took for granted that I could walk across campus and see someone I knew. That I could set up a time to meet for lunch and then stay connected with people during the week. That I'd see people at least 3 times if they went to church, RUF, and small group with me. In my day to day life, I see people who truly know once a week. Maybe twice if I'm lucky. I'm living with new people, not strangers, but not close friends. I'm surrounded by the world of education, which is not full of Believers with the same presuppositions. My schedule is even prohibitive when it comes to joining a small group. Two weeks I've had stuff that prevented me from going to the women's small group through church. Anyone who truly knows me knows that that's not like me. When I commit, I'm committed. I'm a regular attender, come ruin or rapture.

Who is this person?!

I'm also forced to deal with the question, are some of my feelings linked to depression? Do I need to go talk to someone? The stress. The loneliness. No, not just loneliness. Isolation. Is this just the nature of my "new season?" And if it is, what can I do to survive in it?

Closing time...every new beginning comes from some other beginning's end.