Come Ye Sinners (Indelible Grace)

Apathy. Being unmotivated is a curse. It creates problems when you have homework assignments due. It creates problems when you have to think about your future. And it creates problems when you are a Christian trying to live in a secular world. Can anyone relate?

I haven't had a devotional in a few months. I continue to go to church, RUF, small group, talk about Christian things, but when it comes to the day to day, I'm not waking up thinking "Okay God, this day is yours. Give me strength." Which, as I understand it, is what I am supposed to do.

I come back to this question of "What would my life look like if it were governed by a proper 'fear of the Lord?'" What does it really look like to live each day for Jesus?

I have no idea. But it takes an amount of conscience. You have to be aware of living for Jesus. And this is what I don't do. I don't set out to live each moment for Jesus. I don't get excited about Jesus anymore. Talking with one of our RUF newbies, I realized that excitement is still an appropriate response - it's the ONLY appropriate response. God is at work, whether I am or not.

But how do you combat apathy? How do you go about doing something when you don't have any motivation to do something?

There's a song that tells me "All the fitness He requires is to feel your need of Him." But feeling fitness and relying on God's work doesn't exempt me from doing something. I still just don't know how to go about doing it.